February 19, 2009
I was able to witness the most amazing miracle.... the birth of my grandson. I am still in awe! This little guy is a true fighter.... (he must have a lot of Russell blood in him!).... So I continue to ask you all to keep Kim, Justin, and Kyle in your prayers. He is nowhere near being out of the woods yet.... but I think he is going to show us that each day is truly a gift! We are on our way to the hospital now. More later.
I say this because as I read it to him, he responded to all my expressive tones in the funniest way. Kyle has not opened his eyes yet.... and during my reading he would lift his eyelids up as though he were trying to unstick the sleepers from his eyes and his forehead would have all those deep furrowed lines in it like a little old man. I said to Kim that instead of getting the "thumbs up" approval, from Kyle I got the "eyes up" approval. That is good enough for me! Kim and Justin spent the evening with him, stroking his soft skin, kissing his velvety head and just loving him as much as they could. Now comes yesterday. It started off wonderful and turned into another scary day. When we went in, the nurse let Justin hold Kyle in a recliner so that Kyle was lying on Justin's chest. Kim and I had the wonderful pleasure of watching this experience for more than an hour. Kim read to him as she always does and said her prayers with her hand lovingly on Kyle's. I also read to him the book "In Grandma's Arms.” Kyle seems to be quite content with all the lavished attention he gets and he also seems to love all the nicknames we've given him. Our favorites for him are....Justin calls him "My Little Buddy"..... Kimberly calls him "My Beautiful Little Mess" and I call him "My Love." Later in the afternoon when Tina, his nurse, asked Justin how much more time did he want to hold him..... Justin teared up and whispered "forever". Yes.... there were many tears. My heart aches for my children and for my grandchild. And that quickly Kyle had some difficulty breathing... lots of nurses came and were able to stabilize him. It was an extremely scary moment. I think Kyle is preparing Kim and Justin. This beautiful, loving, and selfless baby is giving them time, time that they need. I've been up for a while already this morning and watched the sun come up and it is breathtaking... just like Kyle is. Today we shall again go to the hospital and see what Kyle has in store for us. I know he will give us another story to tell.
So again I ask you all for your continued prayers. I have changed mine some. I still pray to God for a miracle.... that Kyle will be healed and able to come home with his parents. But if that is not meant to be, I pray to God to heal Kyle and take him home with him. In either home Kyle will be loved with a love like no other.
Please keep him and the kids in your prayers. And pray for peace too.
We love you all.